Midnight Vigil Between forest and farm, we appear to sit without moving; leaned back in our chairs. We ride the light from our eyes to the stars. Meteorites flash and fall, oaks heave bright auras. Inside oceanic wind, our ship rotates through space.
Category: A Poem
I see a rainbow inside;
outside, nothing but light.
that which awakens.
Being here, kundalini
does not relate
Whenever the word, kundalini, comes up in conversation, which it has lately, I remember an intense and confusing period where my perceptions were shifting dramatically.
One way to describe the awakening of kundalini is that it is an intensification of internal energies, which can be a smooth rush of energy coming up through the center of the spine, or if there are physiological/psychological blocks there may be unusual manifestations of heat, reactive neurological movements, or other processes that may be difficult to understand. However, eventually, the process of kundalini works to remove the blocks and to create a transformative experience.
After years of integration work, I see now, that such times of challenge can lead to incredible growth spurts. Sometimes, the growth feels as if it is moving too fast and that can be confusing.
I am looking at some of the books I have read on the kundalini experience. I learned that the information I gleaned from my research, though very helpful, was not always totally reassuring. Much more important was and still is to have people in one’s life who are understanding. Without my daughter’s acceptance and support and the help of friends and students, the journey would have been much more difficult.
One massage therapist said about the kundalini energy–“It’s like a Maserati engine driving on a dirt road.” This is an awkward experience until the physical and energetic bodies are integrated.
Each kundalini experience is unique and that can make it harder to work with, because there’s no one way that is correct. The kundalini process can be very puzzling to the outside observer, because it is such an inward process. However, with a positive and nurturing environment, the kundalini can blossom and transform one’s life in a beautiful way.
Adversity Series 1. During the night, a branch crashed; the wound looks rough, bruised, cracked. The broken branch invaded fruit trees and picnic table; I contain reaction to create something beyond confusion. 2. One way to go beyond the wall, observe; along the perimeters are movements light. The wall dissolves. Everything is possible. 3. Listening to Ralph Nader on Labor Day, pain has me hard at work since 3:00 am; Let me be grateful to understand why. Let us not inflict cruel greed from the top.
After the Super Moon
We are having monsoon
weather, air heavy and moist,
predicting possible July
thunderstorms and flash floods
to assault our two year drought.
I have taken walks,
and stocked up on vitamins
not knowing, what am I
Watching the bleached-blond hillside,
a mother and fawn
marauding what’s left
of our garden, I sit
Do I spread my arms,
yell, or hide?
None of the above.
My silence is not my silence.
This silence moves everything.
(c) Gudrun Mouw, July 14, 2014
24 hours later, when face, chest and arm swell
to unsightly proportions,
I understand how instant karma is better
than when I have forgotten the cause,
and that pain is only seeking compassion
for all creatures,
so I open my windows,
welcome wind, welcome sun,
knowing a song to heal this day
is about to be born.
© Gudrun Mouw